Vanessa Bryant- the wife of late NBA star Kobe Bryant pours out her emotions in an Instagram post on Kobe Bryant’s 42nd birthday saying that their lives felt empty without Kobe and Gigi. She says that she is completely broken. The screenshots of the post were widely circulated on Twitter with captions that read “ she missed her husband and daughter Gigi Bryant, more than anyone can explain”. Vanessa writes that she wished she could make his fav food or birthday cake with Gigi and says that she missed his big hugs, kisses, his smile, and his deep and loud laugh. She also thanks Kobe for teaching her how to deal with the hardships she had faced, how to be strong, how to see the best in people and cut out the bullshit. She also wrote about wanting to break down but holding strong to help their children cope with the loss of their father. She further added that she wished she should have died before her husband and daughter and writes “ I am mad I didn’t go first…It should’ve been me”